Oh my !!!!!
Today I thanked God for creating me a little ugly than i would like and I think God told me ‘HELL NO!’ Maybe I am little more self conscious than I would like but not uglier. Now that I think about it, I have yet to see an ugly person. God does not create anyone ugly. Every single person God created is extremely, astoundingly, breath-takingly beautiful. Oh my!!! So overwhelmed!!!! Ive...
Be my strength
“Sanctification doesn’t always look like overcoming your weakness. Sanctification looks like calling on Jesus in the midst of your weakness. It looks like calling on Him earlier this time than you did last time. It looks like calling on Him faster, with more fervency, more dependence each minute of each day.” -fabs
Why don't people say what they mean
Dont you hate it when all that needs to be said is ‘I love you’ but it comes out as anger instead because everyone is too afraid to be vulnerable and risk their true selves getting rejected. Dont you hate it when people talk in third person when they are really talking about themselves.
fearful that this could be true...
She’s building up her kingdom of sticks and stones I hear the words in between they tend to never hold Was she living ever after or making belief She kept away from the heart the things unseen -monsters calling home
Starting to think that advice to conquer sin is useless, only the Gospel is life giving. ‘You should…’ ‘Why don’t you…’ advice tells someone to change a habit but the truth of the Gospel changes the belief behind the habit. All of us also lived among them at one time, gratifying the cravings of our flesh and following its desires and thoughts. Like the...
SFSP part last
Definitions: Prayer- Every morning we had an optional prayer meeting. After many attempts to pray for an hour on my own (sorry S.Chang) I confessed to another staff how hard it was for me to stay awake for an hour without falling asleep. In return, he told me about 7am prayer meetings they had at his college and how refreshing it was for him. Then it just started—first just 3, then to about 8...
SFSP part 3
relationships You know when you get to know someone really well you start to share your struggles with them. I’ve started to realize that when I do get to this point in the relationship I don’t really know what to do, except try to ‘fix’ the struggle. I’m starting to see that not only does it not really work, it is hurtful. Quite honestly, there is nothing that any human can say to change a...
SFSP part 2
emotions are a good thing… still trying to understand this better but i remember going to see a counselor this year and she told me that it was important to acknowledge emotions even when they are upsetting. at first i didn’t believe it but now i think i understand. at first i only saw the upside of not acknowledging my emotions- that i don’t have to experience pain as deeply....
SFSP Update 1.5-Starting from the end
First of all I want to thank all of yall for supporting me! This trip was nothing less of life changing! As I am trying to process this summer I am starting to see how the Lord has been answering prayers. One of my personal reasons for going on this trip was to see if the city is the place the Lord wants me to serve as if going to SF would instantly help me make a decision. Instead, I believe...
realizing why i don't blog now...
i so badly want to get things right that i don’t share the process of understanding with others. its lonely and dumb…so here’s SFSP update 1 and here’s to being known 1.
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I LOVE NATIONAL GEORAPHIC
i feel kinda silly sitting here and just going, OH MY GOD at every picture. they really are that breathtaking. cool, eh :)
What I learned about myself from East Asia
To be completely honest— I don’t know God. At the end of the day, when I’m just left with me and my thoughts, I don’t know the God I so desperately want others to know. I just see a very vague outline from what I kind of know of Jesus. I didn’t realize how much I viewed God as a banker that I was so desperately trying to get out of debt with. In East Asia, it was “easy to “get out of debt”...
the sky is blue...
…so people say. so i have seen, kinda. but today i really saw it and now i really believe it. strange but beautiful. i think blue is my favorite color. probably until i realize the grass is green or dirt is brown.
too proud to cry
i hate that i am one of them. While watching Joy Luck Club i wanted to cry the whole time but i wouldn’t let myself. i want to be vulnerable but i am too proud,ashamed, scared to let people see me in that state. its strange, i love when i get to see people cry because they become so much more real to me. i want to be real. i want to be known.
all the worldy things seem meaningless when the people you love are perishing.
starting to understand
…why prayer is better epic prayed for people going on missions this summer. no amount of money has ever encouraged me this much. thanks fam
Q1: How does faith in the resurrection affect how you live on a daily basis? Christ has risen from the grave and defeated sin. Therefore i must live boldly Christ,the most deserving of everything, gave up all things for me. Therefore i can not feel entitled to anything Christ’s love for me in is me. Therefore i can’t help but love. Q2: What areas of your life would you love to see...
It’s worth it brothers It’s worth if friends To know your maker To lose your sin Did you know that you are dearly loved
I tried to thread a needle today... it was really...
Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God Matthew 19:24 Lord help us
Q: Since everything will be destroyed in this way,...
A: You ought to live holy and godly lives as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming. That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, where righteousness dwells.So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every...
running to Your arms
You are more, You are more than my words will ever say You are Lord, You are Lord all creation will proclaim You are here, You are here in Your presence i’m made whole You are God, You are God OH ALL ELSE I’M LETTING GO.
haven’t done this blog thing in a while but i feel like this is something to remember. nothing except the Lord will satisfy.something the Lord has been so graciously teaching me in almost all aspects of life, even the good ones. nothing (but the Lord) lasts. currently i have been having a biking obsession. something about riding around that makes me forget. i seriously thought it was the...
sin almost became the death of me.
Then, after desire has conceived, it gives birth to sin; and sin, when it is full-grown, gives birth to death. -James 1:15 This verse became very real to me yesterday. I was riding my bike to my parents’ restaurant to send them lunch around 2pm and thought it would be an easy 3.5 mile ride until 5 minutes in and i found out my tires were flat. me, having a little too much pride thought it...
the one about Costa Rica
Costa Rica →
The Gospel call (Christ died for sinners; believe on him and you will be saved) is a call not first to believe that he died for your sins but that, because he is the kind of God who redeems at such a cost and with such wisdom and holiness, he is worthy of trust and he is a truly satisfying repose for all my longings. Believing (that is sensing, apprehending) this is then immediately...
more than conquerors
just had a sudden rush of anguish/loss of hope/fear… i don’t know where it came from but it is physically draining. even after 13 hours of unnecessary sleep i feel weak Romans 8:28-39 please be real…
Jack Johnson says it best
ALL AT ONCE All at once, The world can overwhelm me There’s almost nothin’ that you could tell me That could ease my mind … There’s a world we’ve never seen There’s still hope between the dreams The weight of it all Could blow away with a breeze If your waiting on the wind don’t forget to breathe Cause as the darkness gets deeper We’ll be...
we had guys’ appreciation last night and we closed the night with a verse (Ephesians 3:16-21) half way through reading it i could feel my voice start trembling and my eyes get warm. it was such a weird feeling but i think i wanted to cry. even though i don’t know all the guys very well, i wanted this verse for them so badly. not that i dont want it for others and myself but in that moment, i...
living at dobie 1914. though sometimes it take 15 minutes to get down to the 1st floor and if dobie catches i fire i will be very screwed; living on the 19th floor has been very rewarding. it is such a great daily reminder that the world doesn’t revolve around just me. every morning when i open my blinds i see all of west campus and all the people walking around. its so weird to image every...
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. so true that fear has to do with punishment but how can you love and not fear? i wish i could trust Him so much that the consequences of my family’s disbelief in Christ would not stir fear in me. i so fear the day that they die without...
baby ehm-uh-lee: you are so cute!!! I <3 YOU hope to see you in Thailand :)
i found my tumblr password :)
you make me wanna cry
i miss lighthouse. while listening to them give a spoof of 30 hour famine, i felt like i was gonna cry cause i was so proud. i dont know if i will ever meet a group as God loving as lighthouse. they will make a difference. I LOVE LIGHTHOUSERS!
How Great is Our God
took the dark route home last night with a friend and i couldnt help but stare at the stars. even though my neck was hurting and i was tripping and stumbling on the dirt path i didnt want to look away. it always makes me feel so loved when i look at the stars. to know that the God that made the universe (and beyond) loves me so much that He would die for me. even in all my sin, He loves me. why...
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding– Proverbs 3:5
God is so good to me :D
i dont know why God is so good to me. it started at 11pm last night as i was picking my classes for next semester. i came across a note that said i had a hold and would not be allowed to register for classes (which starts at 7am) emily’s thoughts: im sad…its ok…God is in control…trust God…*sleep* woke up at 6:45 got on to register at 7. at first when i logged on...
Dad's way of caring :)
me: can i drink expired milk
dad: NO! THROW IT AWAY!
me: but its only been 2 day?
dad: NO! THROW IT AWAY!
dad: DO YOU WANT MOM TO BRING YOU SOME?!
me: hahaha no
dad: ok ok...THROW AWAY THE MILK!
so much crap going on right now with the family but for some reason im not feeling much. if i was in this situation 4 months ago i would probably be crying by now. why am i not upset? is it a good thing? its kind of worrying me that i dont care…
i cant sleep
2 thoughts for the night: dont settle be patient
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not...– 1 Corinthians 13:4-7 i need to learn how to love
Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of...– Galatians 6:2 need to soak this in….
i need God...
i realize how much i need God now. for the past week and a half i havent been doing good qts cause of all the distractions and now that i look back i see how much i have changed. ive been getting irritated and stressed more often. i wasnt extending grace to my friends, much less to stangers. i dont really know how to put these past 10 days into words but i now know how weak i am. im sorry,...
Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you.– Psalm 51:12
Its only 4pm and i feel like its the best day of my life. did my qt today and i think i felt joy and peace for the first time! God is good :)
All i Need is You Lord… i guess its just really hard to believe that God has a plan for me and its going to be amazing… why cant i just trust… talked to some friends yesterday about relationships blahblahblah…i feel extremely akward talking about this kind of stuff but i guess it has to be said. after all that it has been decided that i am NOT ready for a relationship. i...